"This is the nature of an assent: it binds the one who gives it, yet it allows him complete freedom in shaping its expression. He fills his assent with his personality, giving it its weight and unique coloring. But he himself is also molded, liberated and fulfilled by his assent. All freedom develops through surrender and through renunciation of liberty. And from this freedom within commitment there arises every sort of fruitfulness."
—Adrienne von Speyr, Handmaid of the Lord
How is it that for thirty-one days—from October 11 to November 11 of this year—I was able to write and post something on this blog every day? And why, except for day 32, have I posted nothing here since then?
The answer, I think, is that, at least for me, commitment makes a difference.
Merriam-Webster's defines commitment as "an agreement or pledge to do something in the future." According to Wikipedia, "a commitment is never supposed to be broken; if it is broken, that means it was never a commitment." Synonyms for commitment, according to Thesaurus.com, include duty, engagement, guarantee, promise, responsibility, vow, and word--as in "I give you my word."
Commitment is what Adrienne von Speyr (a Swiss medical doctor, convert, and mystic who lived from 1902 to 1967) meant when she used the word assent.
Commitment is what Mary, Jesus' mother and our Blessed Mother, meant when she said yes to the angel—and through the angel, to God.
What I need, then, maybe, in order to continue here is something or someone to say yes to. What I need, maybe, is an angel.
An angel who speaks for God. An angel through whom God speaks. Through whom God asks.
May I—like our Blessed Mother; like her husband, Joseph; like Zacharias, Moses, Philip, Cornelius, Peter, and Paul—recognize, next time, the angel of the Lord when he comes.