Sunday, October 21, 2012

Weep with Those Who Weep: Day 11 of 31 Days of Falling by Faith

I discovered this beautiful, wrenching video a few weeks ago and have watched it almost every night since. It never fails to make me cry—and in that way has been good medicine, perhaps even divinely prescribed.

The morning of the day I discovered it, I woke with the sort of all-over pain that has become too familiar in recent months. I prayed for the will to get out of bed, asking "Why? Why?" And then the thought came to me, in these very words: "Because your body is filled with grief. Just cry."

"Really?" I replied, then found that I could indeed cry, easily. In a few minutes the pain volume was dialed down to barely audible, and I was able to get up.

I saw this movie—The Passion of the Christ—once, literally on the big screen, during the first week or two after it came out, with a crowd of coworkers. I don't recall shedding a tear during that viewing. In fact, I remember feeling tough and proud that I had resisted a blatant attempt to manipulate my emotions. A lot has happened since then, and now I gratefully accept the grace and healing, and insights, that these scenes and this music offer me. (It was only while I previewed this post before publishing it that it struck me that in this video Jesus himself falls, in a sense, by faith.)

Amen.

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